21 May 2013

Pregnancy Week 40 - can't take it anymore...

Week 40 started out with very painful contractions at 2am, and yes this time I know for sure that these are contractions!  I felt extreme pressure and pain on my lower back and abdomin, as well as my pelvic bones and I kept breathing hard trying to ease the pain... I could not lay down or sit or move it was continuous pain.  Felt like extremely horrible period cramps in a way, with added pressure.  I went to the bathroom about 5 times! I have no idea if these contractions were coming after 5minutes or not all I felt was continuous pain, sometimes the pain would intensify for a minute or two and then go back to normal (pain).  I am still in pain, except this time it's not so bad as it was last night.  I also felt something warm coming out last night...maybe it's the mucous plug, sorry TMI but what the hell I have a feeling that I will be going into labour soon! If the pain emerges again I am calling the doctor.  I am due in 5 days, my parents are arriving in stockholm tomorrow morning, and I have no idea about the rest.  I am just ready to push him out! 

17 May 2013

Pregnancy Week 39: Contractions I guess?

Here I am at the end of week 39 and I am just sitting here going with the flow.  Everything is so calm, even my baby is calm.  I mean, he moves all day and I can definitely feel his head and stuff, but movement is just different.  He was like this even during my last midwife appointment a week and a half ago and the midwife checked on him saying everything was normal.  So this waiting process is driving me nuts! And I thought I was impatient during first trimester!  Why are things so calm?  Not that I want it to go crazy just yet... but I keep thinking about the significant quiet moment nature presents, when everything is still, the wind stops blowing, birds become silent, and suddenly that great tornado approaches, does it's job and you finally realize how important life is to you.

I have no idea what to expect! I just can't wait to hold my baby...but at the same time, I am a nervous wreck. My life is going to change I feel it.  First-time-mommy and even though I am ready as ever, I am starting to realize that things won't always be centered around ME anymore.  I won't let it happen.  Motherhood is taking over me and it's a wonderful feeling already.

What's going on with my body...

All I hear pregnant women say is they get early contractions with uneven intervals and I have no idea what they talk about.  How am I supposed to know what a contraction feels like??? I feel stupid even asking myself this.  I know all women just kinda know...just like how they knew the time they had their first period? (and I thought I was dieing).

For the past 3 days I've been having light menstrual-like cramps in the morning.  It would start around the same time at 6 or 7am and go away after half an hour.  It just comes and goes and no it does not come every 5 minutes.  So I guess this is what you call early contractions?  A sign that labour is close... I'm calm...how am I calm????? Will I stay calm when it's actually TIME? I have no idea...   

14 May 2013

Pregnancy Week 38 - waiting begins....

This week I had a hard time moving around and especially getting up after sitting for a long period of time.  It's a pain doing the dishes or cooking with a bump that sticks so far out.  Going down a hill can even be a bit risky.  I think I felt a few minor contractions this week.  Nothing big.

Baby is lower so I don't have heartburn anymore and I can finally breath.  Aside from having a hard time changing sides, I sleep better.

In school we have just started our new subject on human anatomy and physiology.  Basically it's all review for me, accept I have to swedify my brain and substitute some words here and there.  Happy I took latin in college.  Sure is coming to use now.

I'm loving our new apartment.  I try to keep it squeaky clean and fresh all the time.  Still need to get used to the quiet atmosphere with just me and hubby in the house.  But it won't be so quiet soon enough...baby's on the way!

So much happening next week! I have my last appointment with my midwife.  A practical the day after, and the day after that my parents will be coming to Sweden! I am so excited!

I gained a total of 12 kg and I didn't have to buy any maternity clothes.  No more space for clothes in the house!  I've been eating everything.  My appetite just keeps increasing, I wonder what will happen after birth.

My little baby can't jump around much since he has taken up all the space in my little womb.  He moves around all day with his tiny little legs.  I feel him and he never makes me feel uncomfortable.  I don't mind if he decides to stay another 2 weeks.  As long as he's fine...

07 May 2013

Pregnancy Week 37: What's in a name...

A lot happened this week.  First off, I had a written exam which I thought was one of the hardest exams I've ever taken for this semester.  I suck at written tests in english so I don't even know what I did last thursday afternoon, scribbling page after page in swedish.  I'm worried.  Then I was busy with packing and unpacking, moving things to the new apartment.  At this point, getting up after sitting for just 5 minutes feels tiring let alone cleaning up the apartment.  It takes time to get adjusted to a new place and actually making it a home.  Shopping for the new home will never end.  There are so many small things we still need.  The main stuff is over with, now it's all about decorating.  We finally invited hubby's entire family to the new place and took a short walk around the area over the weekend. Now let's talk about the new family member we are all waiting for patiently.

Dear Baby,

Now that you are considered full-term, ready to make your entrance into this world, mommy has decided to give you your name.  We have been thinking and thinking for the name that would suit you best for the past 6 months but it's so hard you know.  If there's something I like, dad doesn't, and vice versa.  This name is something everybody seems to agree with, and most importantly, it feels like it's best suited for you.

The name is of Arabic origin, and it's basic meaning is "safegaurd", "pledge", "protecting" which all link to a meaningful individual who carry the qualities of honesty, bravery, and modesty.  I pray that you grow up to be a trustworthy person who will always offer protection.  A person who can handle himself and others with care.  And ofcourse, I don't want anybody screwing with your name.  So I tried to find a simple yet meaningful name for you in which everybody in the world will be able to pronounce.  So here it is...

Isaam.  Isaam Feroz. Hopefully we will finally get to hold you in 3 weeks.  Mommy is very close to losing patience! My dear Isaam.  See you soon...InshaaAllah.