My first glance at programming

March 2017:

Giving you an update. Nearly 3 weeks have passed and I have completed my first ever programming course. Well, it was more like a pre-programming course. Whatever you may call it, it was great stuff.  I loved lt! Why did I never study this before? My stubborn butt always chose science over maths and technology, and I don't even know why.

So my husband helped me out a lot.  He is the reason I am able to take a distance course.  He would have made a horrible teacher, but I am seeing that he is a great computer engineer. So he does help.

Yesterday i was counting down literally saying tick tock tick until the registration time for Autumn opened. I immediately applied to KTH. It won't hurt to apply right? I applied for an engineering program.  I know not many people get in but it's worth a shot. Meanwhile i will be applying for my distance program in software programmer Or tester. Anything to do with IT.

So i still didn't get a job. Whichever one i apply for gives me a reply back saying the place has been TAKEN. Bummed out. So It looks like i will be working at the postoffice again for the summer..and eventually meet more interesting characters. Hopefully I won't slam my finger through the machine again. 

Well at least my first programming course was successfully done.

Cheers.

The Secret

February 2017:

So i have to share my thoughts with somebody who has neither a mouth nor a mind.  I will only publish these posts if I succeed with my plan.  As of now this plan of mine is top secret and sounds very shocking and quite impossible but That's only what they all think. My husband is encouraging me to go on with the plan but most times he thinks I am joking around. My parents believe in me. They always have. Incredible people. By now, I wouldn't even believe in me. The promise-breaker who never finishes what she starts. So day 1 of my journey begins as a new and improved Tani.

My plan:

Taking the deepest life changer of breaths:  To change my career path.

Saying goodbye to the healthcare field, with a heavy heart.  Stepping into the mysterious world of IT.  It feels like I am on the edge of the cliff, and I have just stepped on the thread of technology.  A thin thread, that goes across another mountain.  Distinctively far, but not impossible to reach.  I must be out of my mind.

A 2016 update of my life

It has been ages since my last post in my sweet little blog.  I am just getting older and weaker and lazier these days.  I used to be so active back when I had all the time in the world to achieve goals but nowadays I just try to get through the day with washed dishes, well-fed tummies of hubby, the son, and ofcourse me, and getting through the days wabbling around while I count down the days till June.
Wabbling? Count down to June?  Yes you guessed right!  I am on my 2nd trimester!  I remember updating weekly pregnancy blogs for my little prince, Isaam.  Time truely flies.  He was so little and now here he is going to Dagis (day care) and coming back with handfull of his own paintings and art projects.  My toddler is growing up in front of my eyes and it brings tears to my eyes.  I can picture him now slowly becoming a big brother.  I worry about him feeling the change hitting him this summer.  It will be tough for him seeing all his attention getting snatched away.  It is so freaking exciting to think about... him looking after his little sister.  Sister! Girl!

My baby girl will hopefully arrive just in time with Stockholms beautiful summer breeze.  Our first little girl and we still cant decide a name for her!  We are beyond excited, hubby and I, and I am an emotional wreck.  I will cry watching the slightest of touchy commercials let alone movies.  I am bigger than last time and I have more appetite for dairy products than anything else really!   Completely different but somewhat physically more straining pregnancy... I want the journey to go by fast so I can finally see my baby girl!

Meanwhile, we need a bigger place to live now that our family will have one extra member, which means we are house hunting.  Fun stuff!  We are planning to sell our house and it is all just so exciting and nervewracking at the same time.  April 12th was when we came here such a beautiful area that I have fallen in love with it for the past 3 years.  How can I leave this place?  Ive also been dreaming night and day about how to decorate our new house wherever that may be!

Last but not least my brother-in-law got married back in december 2014 which I also havent updated and his wife has finaLLY gotten the visa so she will be coming to stockholm next week!  Ahh!!!!! We are supercool she is like the little sister I never had..funny how that is, because I used to think of my brother-in-law as the little brother that I was always supposed to have haha!  They are just too cute!

Lots happening this year!  I am so lucky to see my parents this year and I look forward to seeing them again in the summer when baby will be arriving! 

How my skin and well-being improved

I had horrible skin before and now, my face is surprisingly glowing after many years of hearing criticism.  I give credit to the mommy hormones!  So i had extremely oily skin which has changed to normal skin, but I still did get a few breakouts during certain times of the month, which left scars on my face.  That problem, however, seemed to disappear, and now I think I know why!

I clean my face differently:

Before:
I would buy a good cleanser for acne-prone skin and wash, even over-wash, my face every night before going to bed.  I even skipped many nights of putting on a moisturizer clearly because I knew moisturizers made me breakout during the night.

Now:
Whether I have makeup on or not, I spread cold-pressed coconut oil all over my face and massage.  I take a babywipe and take off all impurities on every inch of my face.  Then I wash my face with warm water.  Pat dry.  I put on a light nightcream for normal skin.

I eat differently:

Before:
I would occasionally eat the stuff that was great for your skin until I just gave up and ate junk food.  Greasy food, sweets, cakes, cookies, milk chocolate, just everything sweet and or greasy!  Not to mention soft drinks!  The next week I would have pizza face! Although some say it is a myth, I strongly believe that your face will reflect your diet.

Now:
I totally cut back on junk food. (Accept for the occasional ice cream..i just cannot resist!). I eat salmon or anything with omega 3 and fishoil.  Salmon with steamed veggies are the best!  If you plan on eating veggies then please do not overcook them and kill all the nutritious components your body needs!  I always have milk, eggs, and turkish yoghurt in my refrigerator.  My breakfast includes oats with milk and strawberry jam, whole wheat bread and cheese.  A healthy breakfast is key to a healthy you, and definitely glowing skin! Always include a fresh salad with your meals.

---I drink more water!---
-i take a multivitamin- because I know I dont take all needed vitamins in a day or even a week.

Sleep and waking up:

Before:  -I would wake up and rush to do things before.  No matter what time it was, early or late I would always stress about the day and feel like time is slipping away from my hands.

Now:
I wake up way ahead of time from my regular schedule so I can have some "just me time" and it is very motivational and calming!  Treat yourself with good food, some yoga and calming music.  You will have a nice day after that!It will show on your face!  So forget about those cucumbers on your eyes.

I have a day cream! Eucerin even brighter.  It made my scars go away and it suits my skin perfectly!

I also have a routine!

A healthy one!

Update on my life

Time slips away from the hands like sand.  I couldn't stress on how realistic that phrase has been for me and how this simile is taking over my life month by month. 

We tend to believe that we have total control over our lives, which is a very strong and smart way to consider your life, however, there are situations that we have absolutely no self-control over.  Let me give some examples:  Planning to have another baby, a non-swede getting a very Swedish job immediately, or perhaps getting rid of that extra blob of post-pregnancy tummy skin through healthy eating and exercise.  You cannot always assume these things will happen.  Some things must be accepted the way they are.  

These are a few of my problems that I shared with you today.  I could continue ranting but I will stop for a moment and think about the positive aspects of my life. Let me give some examples:  My son has started day-care and he is almost 2.5 years old.  He is growing up way too fast and I am starting to see his own personality coming out from that baby body that I always see and will see in him.  I am done with school.  No more studying, cramming, and stressing over assignments and exams and most importantly, passing.  I have studied the things I wanted to and had to study, I do have a very supportive husband and a wonderful son, and although I might have extra saggy skin that will never go away, I still have a healthy body that works properly.

I will be turning 30 next year.  I should obviously experience both tangible and intangible alterations.

So there is no need to fear the upcomings of my life.  I am too old to be scared.  

Art of the Day - A 50/50 Couple

Just because you are out doing groceries with your man doesn't mean he should carry all the bags. You as a woman have both inner and outer strenghth. Help him out and he will truly appreciate it and remember it. 

Oh look... It just started to rain!

A mutual relationship is a beautiful thing.