Pregnancy Week 15 (2nd trimester)

What a milestone! I made it through the first 3 months and today marks the beginning of my 2nd trimester! I feel absolutely fantastic and I hope baby does too.

Today has been a wonderful day!  I remember in the middle of my first trimester I was craving all these summer fruits that were impossible to find in any grocery store here.  All these exotic tropical fruits.  Well, it's December, snowing like crazy outside and as I walk in the supermarket I see all the fruits I have been craving for weeks all on the same row.  It was so incredibly pleasant to see!  I got my green hard mangoes, litchis, sour starfruits, juicy watermelon, and promegrenate.  I never felt so glad in my life.  Carrying heavy loads of fruits over the snowy hilltops was definitely worth it today. Walking up a hill with a big fat watermelon felt like running a mile afterwards though.  I was breathless!

I went to see my midwife today and she gave me these 2 important papers that I'm suppose to take the day of the delivery.  I finally found out my blood group (A+) and she said all the test results came out normal.  I got my time to do the ultrasound.  That would be one month from now.  Can't wait!  I also found out that my midwife is pregnant! I'm only 3 months and she's like 5 and a half.  Pretty cool.  Her bump sure shows it.

How am I feeling?

Much better than 3 weeks ago.  I have gradually progressed and I finally gained about 1.5kg last week.  So I'm catching up.  I think my frequent intake of fruits and nuts are really helping me recover faster.  I have more energy now.

The part that sucks is even though I eat a lot of fruits with fiber I hardly go to the bathroom except for peeing.  No wonder my tummy is the size of a freakin melon.  It better not be smashing my baby.

Foods I eat..

Let's hope that hyperemesis nightmare doesnt come get me again.  While I was going through so much vomiting the only thing I was able to take in was yogurt and potatoes.  Now the list has improved.

I get my day's portion of protein (eggs, salmon, chicken breast, dried nuts), Fruits n vegetables (I eat a lot of fruits, and mostly greens n carrots for vegies), whole grains and starches , dairy (milk, cheese and low fat yogurt).  I eat every 1.5hours to avoid sickness and i never drink liquid and solids together.  I still have to get into a good habit of drinking more water.

How's baby?

How's my baby? I'm asking myself the same thing.  I really don't know.  I read all these weekly pregnancy sites and thats about as much information I can get.  I know that it can hear now....and eat (through some amniotic sac).  All I know is it's the size of an orange and it feels like it. My waist is much thicker.  I have a slight bump and I bloat like crazy so if you combine my bloaty tummy with the little bump I actually look 4 whole months preggo!  Thanks to gas.

Pregnancy week 14

I was way too happy on the first 2 days of this week.  I sure was! I dropped by to see my midwife who gave me iron tablets and told me hopefully everything will start to get better.  I was obligated to take Primparon today since i am not able to take a single sip of anything by mouth.  Soooo sick of being sick! To top it all off, there is a terrible blizzard outside and I don't think it will stop until we get 2 meters of snow (we already got 1 meter).  Too scared to open the damn door!  I hate this stuffy feeling in the house it just makes me feel worse.  I got this new symptom where I almost faint every morning.

I also heard most who go through hyperemesis are pregnant with a female fetus.  So I will probably have a girl.  Who knows...

When i do have cravings they are usually: cheeseburgers, kfc, sometimes sour fruits, and salty snacks.

Other days I just don't eat anything.  Not even a sip of water...my vomiting gets that bad.  That's why the doctor prescribed me primparon to take anally.  I don't know if it actually works though.  I also read that it poses a risk to the baby especially during 3rd trimester.  I am about to start 2nd trimester and just to be on the safe side, I avoid primparon with the exception of days like today!

Pregnancy week 13

Day 1 of this week really sucked! I threw up the entire day even without eating or drinking anything!  I also had major heartburn the day before.  I guess even if i do crave sour things, I won't be able to eat it, because I really don't want to experience heartburt ever again!

My bump is visible now.  Baby is growing fine I hope. If so, it should be the size of a peach by now.  This week I have been getting the feeling that it's going to be a girl.  Let's see what the doctor says next month!

I am back to a strict diet again.  I can't eat anything too greasy or spicy at all.

Oh help me God! Give me strength to get me through the next 6 months! I can't control my digestive system my goodness it's going psycho on me! Calm it down please! I'm in the middle of week 13 and people are saying sickness is supposed to calm down! It's not! I lost count on how many times i threw up today..and all i took in was a bread, a cookie, and a tiny chicken roll.  Everything came out...water came out...saliva...then all i saw in the toilet was green fluid that I almost choked on! This sucks!  Took my medicine...but i still feel the same! Let me just feel sleepy so i can sleep through this please!!!  Can't I be sleeping beauty for 6 months???? I can't take it anymore, I need healing!

Last day of week 13:  And God answered my prayers! I feel fantastic today.  Woke up early in the morning today without feeling queezy.  I ate breakfast and lunch and so far, as half the day has passed, no sign of vomiting or any kind of sickness!  I can eat a whole steak right now!

I went to see my midwife today and she told me to take iron tablets (niferex) for the time being.  Next appointment will be in a week and she will be able to tell if I still need to be on iron tablets or not.

Hope my baby's fine in there.  I do not look pregnant at all, but guess what? Tomorrow I will start week 14!!!!! Yay! Last week of first trimester. Hmmm...still haven't told the world about this big secret yet....thinking of spreading the good news soon.

Pregnancy week 12 - started to show!

This is day 1 of week 12.  Almost there! I can't wait till I get through first trimester just one more week, yay!

Just when I thought my morning sickness was going away, I started throwing up right after breakfast.  I drank some juice and half an our later there it goes again.  I had lunch and luckily I still kept it down. My throat does however feel kind of funny.  I just don't wanna think about it again.  I have a feeling I will be taking more trips to the bathroom later on this afternoon.

I have so much dizziness it's crazy! Can't get up from sitting down too fast.  Still can't eat anything with oil or any kind of spices...or anything warm.  It just makes me gag.  I'm living off of boiled potatoes.  Still haven't gained back my regular weight.  Baby you're killin' me here! I'm still thankful that my baby's doing great.  My baby has reflexes now!

I'm still not showing obviously, but I sure can feel where it is.  It's amazing to even think about another life being created inside of you. And I pray every day that the lil' one is healthy and safe.

How am I getting through this month? Well I'm looking forward to my next appointment with my midwife on Dec 10th.  That's the day she will give me the date for the ultrasound.  That will be the first day I take my husband with me.  Boy will he be surprised.  The last time I got an ultrasound done at 9 weeks was amazing. Unfortunately my husband couldn't be with me, he was working.  This time will be interesting.  I think that will be the day we get to know whether it's a boy or a girl.  Whatever sex it may be, we just want a healthy baby!

Middle of 12 weeks and I feel pretty good, not to mention, I finally have my bump! My little bump! Yes it is already visible! I can feel where it is my goodness what an amazing feeling...just knowing where it is. So i looked in the mirror and suddenly see the "bump" that i am so obssesed with right now...and i start thinking, hmmm, it seems to be pretty low...so far i look like i am carrying low.  You know what they say about that..."boy baby".  Then again i am breaking out (thanks hormones!) and the glow went away...so they say those signs imply "girl baby".  Don't really want to stick to the old wive's tale...really cant say what the gender is and you know what? I dont care i just want a healthy baby! Yay!

Pregnancy week 11

So week 10 was so far my worst week.  I hope that was the last time I ever need to go to the hospital for so much vomiting.

Week 11 started out horrific.  I woke up on day 2 and started bleeding all of a sudden!  So much went through my mind. Tried to stay calm but come on, after seeing blood the first time earlier this year my positive feelings were flushed down the toilet once I slowly found out I was going to have a miscarriage.  I was praying with my hand on my womb to keep my baby alive this time.    Luckily the bleeding stopped.  I guess it was old blood or something.  I hear that it happens to some pregnant women around this time.  The blood spills out due to the cervix being sensitive.  Anyway...I just don't wanna see blood again!

I didn't throw up this week at all.  I'm still careful with my meals.  Instead of 3 large meals I tend to have 6 small ones a day, keeping myself hydrated between every meal.  I can't drink large gulps of anything, especially water.  Apple juice and potatoes are my best friends! Man, I am so underweight right now.

My baby is supposed to be more than an inch big now.  I wonder whats going on inside.  I feel physical changes and half the time it feels kinda weird...and gross.  Always feeling nauseous, throwing up in the morning, on meds, excess saliva, feeling "wet", do I need to say more????? Then I think about that sweet little angel's face.

Week 10 : my second stay at the hospital

It is said, "knowing about it is not the same as experiencing it yourself." I couldn't agree more.

We all know pregnant women go through all these changes in their body which causes all-day sickness, mood swings, fatigue and so much more, but we really don't get the real deal until we're the ones who become pregnant.

I used to ask my mother, "ammu, how come you never wanted more children?" She would answer saying how I have always been the one special gift to both her and dad. She never wanted to make me feel left out when it came to loving and caring.  "but having more than one child does not mean loving one child more than the other!  At the end, when you get old, you will only regret not having a bigger family," the other mothers would say.  Then my mom would tell me about her long sick days throughout her 9 months. What I never knew was mom had undergone hyperemesis gravidarum.  Something that im suffering from now.  My poor mommy. I feel every inch of her pain now!  I wouldn't wish for this condition on my worst enemy...

Each and every human body responds differently.  Some have it easy, some in the middle, and some just have very bad luck! In this case, I am totally out of luck!

I was recovering from last week until suddenly I had painful stomach aching and diarrhea the entire night! Not to mention, vomiting! All at the same time, minute after minute. It was war.  I hardly had any fluid in me, and whatever bits i had left just all came out! Couldn't even swallow my own saliva.  So i had to get admitted to huddinge again.  More iv, one more day of fasting. ER here I come....

What can I eat?
Nothing. But i finally got to drink one whole glass of water.

How is the baby?
Absolutely fine.  This is my baby's way of letting me know "im growing just fine!" All those organs and organ tissues are developing so quickly.  Just Amazing...