18 November 2012

USA should learn from Sweden

This is a very insightful video I found from a family member who also lives in Stockholm.  It made me feel pretty good about living in this country.  It's going to be 3 years of my residence in Sweden next March.  I've seen enough to wholeheartedly say that you have more chance of being stress-free, happy, healthy, secure, and classy all at the same time here...once you start opening your mind, that is.
Enjoy!
Sweden: A Supermodel for America?

14 November 2012

Bangladeshi Rickshaw puller Helps the Poor


Bangladesh is one of the poorest and most corrupt countries in the world, and with that put in our mind; most of us look down upon our own kind.  Admit it or not, that is the plane ugly truth.  

We have this division of class in our own language.  There are 3 different ways of addressing a person based on their status of respect.   The most highly respected person is addressed by “apne” (translates to “you”).  The average person who is around your age or class would be addressed by “tumi” (translates to “you”).  The most informal and lowest class for mostly uneducated people is addressed by “tui” (also translates to you”).  Yea, they all mean “you”. 

The Rickshaw Puller builds a clinic

Quite ironic how we go around the world working among foreigners and complain about being discriminated, yet here we are taking a vacation to our motherland and calling out the rickshaw man across the street by “tui”.  No respect.  Even though that tired person might be your father’s age, and you are just half his age, it’s still “tui”.  “Tui jabi?” (You goin’?) “JABI?!” Sadly, this has generally been South Asia’s social norm.

Today I have an eye-opener story for people around the world, but most specifically for Bangladeshis and other desis of all ages to reflect upon.   I want to share one of the most inspirational stories of our times that awestruck me, about a rickshaw puller in Bangladesh.  A man who earned barely $6 on his “good days” for 14 tough years as a rickshaw puller in the insanely busy city of Dhaka, who made a free clinic that now treats hundreds of patients each day.  In addition, he provided a coaching center to educate underprivileged children.  He is Joynal Abedin, the loyal rickshaw puller.

Stop and think for a moment.  An old man who falls among the lowest and poorest level of class in one of the poorest countries in the world has accomplished a “world leader’s” task from scratch.  As Bangladeshi lawyer Nilufar Yesmin Biswas says, “Joynal Abedin is not only a man of golden heart, but also a slap on the faces of the greedy wealthy people of the country.”  I could not have expressed it any better!

The Story behind Joynal Abedin’s Dream

At age 30, Joynal Abedin’s doom’s day was marked on a dark rainy afternoon in his hometown called Taan Hashadia, Mymensingh, a northern village quite far away from Dhaka.  Joynal’s father had become extremely ill, so sick that he needed a doctor’s attention.  The big problem was, no nearby hospital or clinic existed where they lived.  The nearest medical center was 12 miles away, a 2-day’s walk.  He was a farm worker at the time with very little money and no source of transportation.  With the current circumstances in his life, he was unable to cure his father and so he passed away in his arms. 

The grief that followed his death kept haunting him.  He wanted to prove to others, but most importantly to himself, that he was not letting this go.  He didn’t want another individual to be in his place, seeing his/her loved one suffering and dying due to helplessness.  This was the beginning of his quest to providing a nearby free medical care center for the helpless.  Nothing was going to stop him now.

The Struggle behind Joynal Abedin’s Dream

Joynal Abedin and his wife, Lal Banu, left the village in Mymensingh after the devastating incident and came to the busy capital city of Dhaka.  With hardly any money in his pocket, no education, and cold sweaty hands, the man was overwhelmed by Dhaka’s lifestyle.

"When I landed in Dhaka it was a new experience for us. We were amazed by the size and energy of the city. Initially, we were not sure how we could survive there," remembered Mr. Abedin.

The couple struggled.  In search of employment, his wife finally was given the chance to work at a clinic.

Mr. Abedin was not qualified enough for any job and like many others in the country, he earned his living by becoming a rickshaw puller, “a job of shame” as most Bangladeshis would put it, and probably the hardest job especially in the capital city with its deadly street and air pollution, horrific unregulated traffic, road violence, and natural disasters.  Being honked, bullied, and verbally (sometimes even physically) abused by other road travelers and passengers while transporting passengers, heavy goods, sometimes animals,  even in the hot sweaty noon or dirty flash-flooded muddy roads were an every-day ritual Mr. Abedin went through for 14 long years.   A rickshaw puller’s one day worth of constant peddling gives no more than $6 a day, and that’s if he has luck.  There is no fixed rate when we travel in rickshaws, we always bargain.

Year after year, the family struggled, but even during their darkest times when money was most in need, the couple still managed to put aside a portion for savings.  Mr. Abedin says himself, "Sometimes my wife used to argue with me for not bringing enough money to run the family. But I always saved some money. Even during difficult times, I never touched my savings."

After 14 years of hard work, Mr. Abedin and his wife decided to go back to their village with their 2 young children and their life-long savings they had made in Dhaka,  a total of 2.84 lakh Taka, approximately $4,000. 

Joynal Abedin’s Big Move

It takes a lot of guts and a big heart to make “the move”.  The move that you had always clearly pictured in your dreams but the same one that society laughs at…until you ACTUALLY do it.  This is exactly what happened to Mr. Abedin. 

In 2001, Mr. Abedin took his family back to their old village in Mymensingh with their total savings of $4,000.  They bought 23 decimals of land where he constructed their tin-roof house.  With the money that he had left, he arranged to have 4 beds in the house hoping to make the place a hospital which provides free treatment for patients living in the village, considering there is no nearby clinic where any sick patient can be treated. 

Meanwhile, Mr. Abedin tried to contact many healthcare providers, doctors, and local paramedics.  Many doctors rejected his offer and so many took his idea as a joke.  He finally found a local paramedic to give patients first aid treatment.  The clinic provided pain killers, oral saline, paracetamol, metronidazol, antacid and de-wormers.

“With rest of the savings I opened a four-bed hospital in my house and named it after my daughter Momtaz,” said Joynal Abedin.

The Momtaz Hospital quickly caught the villagers’ attention and more and more patients showed up each day.

Mr. Abedin later found an MBBS doctor who had agreed to visit the hospital occasionally, as long as he got paid 500Taka each day he visited.  With a doctor, a paramedic, and a basic first aid kit, about a hundred patients visit each day.  All in need of care.  The patients that are under more serious conditions are directed to the main hospital which is 12miles away. 

With the urge to help his fellow villagers, Mr. Abedin went even further to open a free coaching class right beside the hospital for underprivileged children (about 50).  The classes are taught by 2 teachers who are being paid 3,500Taka monthly.  The subjects taught are basic Bangla, Arabic, English, and Math.

The news about Joynal Abedin’s successful clinic started spreading immediately and in 2004, Bangali social icon Abdullah Abu Sayeed donated  10,000 Taka and some medicines.  A year later, World Vision International provided the hospital with some medicines.  In the same year, 2005, a woman from the USA donated 70,000 taka ($1,000) to Mr. Abedin.  Finally in 2006, the social welfare and local administration in Bangladesh donated 30,000 taka ($430) to Momtaz hospital.

Where his hospital stands today

At a tiring age of 55, Joynal Abedin has not been in the healthy condition of being able to continue as a rickshaw puller anymore.  He spends most of his time close to his family and working hard trying to keep his charitable hospital and education center running.  Unfortunately, he has been running short in finance due to the monthly wages he provides to the two teachers giving them $100 a month.  Furthermore, the cost of medicine and other equipement have been a challenge.  In the past 5 years he hasn’t been getting much help.

Still optimistic and strong, Mr. Abedin says, “I want to cling to my goal till I breathe the last and seek nothing more for me and my family.”

"My dream is to convert this clinic into a full-fledged hospital with the help of the government and other donors."

The most unfortunate part about this hearty man is that he has been betrayed by several people who initially promised him help but later turned things against him trying to give him the image of a “greedy fraud” and even tried reporting him to the police as a “criminal”. Due to this reason, the idea of even asking for help haunts him. 

What can you do to help?

First and foremost, try remembering this man.  Spread good words that will inspire others to be like him.  News of accomplishment was first marked by “The Daily Star” and “Prothom Alo” in the year 2011.  If you want to help Mr. Abedin in any way financially or just by spreading good words about this man,  go ahead and “like” the group “Let’s Help Zainul Abedin” on Facebook to be updated and get information on where you can donate or maybe even visit Momtaz Hospital.  Prothom Alo takes care of the donations.  For more information contact me or the facebook group.

Let’s not make Joynul Abedin’s dream incomplete.  Let’s help Joynul Abedin!

Personal Note

I found news of this Bangladeshi icon while randomly surfing, yesterday.  What a SHAME.  Before I taunt others I want to remind MYSELF.  I never hear a single good news coming from this country.  Whenever I turn the tv on, or read the newspaper even facebook, I hear 99% devastating news.   Politics takes over half the damn news, which is why I refuse to READ or LISTEN.  I find talking about an issue with no beginning or end absolutely pointless! 

I don’t give a rat’s ass about what a political leader did to Bangladesh or what he/she plans on doing in the god damn future.  I don’t want to hear about educated decent once-known-to-be-generous people suddenly “betraying” Bangladesh.  We are really good at pointing out flaws aren’t we?

The last thing I wanna hear is that Joynul Abedin the rickshaw puller invested his entire savings on a charitable hospital and school, BUT later fooled his patients and students by giving them false sources, making them more corrupt, and eventually becoming a fraud who feeds off of good people’s money.  God forbid this ever became any level of a news, but this is what I fear the most! 

Joynul Abedin won the Sada Moner Manush (Man of Golden Heart) award in 2008.  Even if he didn’t win this award, my respect for this man would not move an inch.  During his decades of hardship pedaling the rickshaw in the heat and in the rain, not once did Mr. Abedin think of fame.  His intention was always pure.  I salute this humble man for even being the most modest individual up till now.  A selfless humble man in Bangladesh.

I am honored to even know about him.



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29 October 2012

Step-by-step in Sweden: U-turn


Oh how I despise U-turns.  My passengers find it even more irritating and end up blaming me for making such a stubborn choice which caused me to make such a sharp U-turn in the first place.  The worst part is when you end up being in the same place, realizing you have been wasting your critical time going around circles. 

Looking at my previous post “Step-by-step in Sweden: Checklist”, it seems as if I am getting absolutely nowhere.  I had 4 goals listed: 1, get a job, 2, get educated in Swedish, 3, get a Swedish driver’s license, and 4 get a permanent residence permit.   Among the 4, I checked #4.  So that’s deleted off my list.  Now I will add a new #4, and I will get back to that later.  Next, I half-checked #1 and #2 because, apparently, they were “in progress.”  Let’s not forget #3.  Something that will remain unchecked for a while.  Almost two months have passed and I will tell you all about my sudden U-turn which caused #1 through #3 to be fully unchecked. 

Never got the job
I thought I got hired by Lycamobile after that super short interview I had with the quiet Sri Lankan guys.  They sure did give me the date to start working, so I thought everything was final.  What I didn’t know that they had to get this “approval” from Lycamobile’s main office, which is in London, to get me started as an employee.  Weird.  If they didn’t get the approval to let someone work as marketing assistant, why post the position on Arbetsförmedlingen and many other job search engines in the first place?  So as the time approached for me to start working I called to check up on the whole approval status.  Every time I called, I would get the same reply: “We’re sorry, we can’t really say much about your schedule before getting the approval.  We have to wait for the approval.  We will let you know as soon as we get it.”  So my last try was just emailing them saying whenever they get the approval to let me know.  They said ok.  They didn’t know “oh, we’re sorry, the position is no longer available,” instead they just left me hanging.  I got the point.  It wasn’t going to happen.  I was not going to get the job. 

Never got the course
Yea remember I had big plans for starting this 5-month long receptionist course packet?  Well I didn’t get in.  I was qualified.  I just never got in.  Vuxenutbildningen are in charge of handling all the paper  works.  I despise them because they are so lazy and lack service.  They are actually kind of rude.  I called them a few times to know about the status of my application.  The one that was just sitting there for months.  Instead of patiently listening to my simple problem, they interrupt me and treat me like some illiterate naïve stranger who has no idea about how the system works.  All I know is there system sucks.  I get infuriated after getting a letter by mail the day before my course starts, letting me know that I never got in because there were too many people who applied for the same course.  Even though I did apply early, and I did have all the requirements, I did not get in.  Thanks for letting me know about that the day before class starts. 

Driver’s license
I heard driving tests outside of the main city are not as tough.  Whenever I decide to take the test (which will NOT be this year) I will definitely take it outside of the city.  Meanwhile I’ll stick to walking.  It’s better for me anyway. 
My new #4  Changing my last name
I’m married but my name is still the same.  I was waiting for my permanent residency which I got.  I need to contact Skatteverket to get my last name as the same as my husband’s.  I was thinking more about the future when we have kids.  I need to do that before this year ends.

Refreshing the to-do list
1.       Get a Job
I got in contact with a job coach.  She helped me with my CV and personal letter in Swedish.  Now she’s going to help me look for jobs.  Very helpful.
Also, I have this interview on Sunday afternoon to work at the post office.  I told them I was interested in working as a seasonal employee.  Christmas is coming, who knows, maybe ill be lucky enough to finally work in this country.
2.       Get an education
I applied to a few universities to begin the nursing program starting spring semester 2013.  They are extremely selective, and they will definitely take the smart swedes here first.  I am still praying to get in.  It’s a 3-year program which I really want to do.  I’m waiting for the result.
3.       Get a Swedish driver’s license
4.       Change my last name

I've been sick lately.  That’s just the cherry on top.  No, wait.  The cherry on top is ….winter is around the corner.  Here I am sitting by the window typing, and at times, glancing outside.  The strong cold wind is separating the vibrant autumn leaves from their twigs.  Grey clouds spread like a thick blanket on top of freezing cold Sweden.  It’s 3pm, but it feels more like 7pm.  Darkness is taking over once again.  So depressing.

15 October 2012

Story of Aryan 9

Aryan loves his weirdly out-dated, annoying, american-desi family.  He can't imagine living without them.  Especially since his mom still cleans after his mess and feeds him new meals every damn day.  But for the past couple of weeks he has been thinking, "i need a break from these guys"....

He finally paid off his college loans and was ready to chill..


So he was thinking, why not travel and try new things?
He decided to plan the first trip with his old buddy Sam. 
Now Sam's real name is Sammiuddin Shah but he likes keeping things short and sweet.  He's also a bangali-american but he hates bangalies....with the exception of Aryan..his childhood buddy.
Sam does not like Desis, or so he says.  "I don't understand bangali girls."  He likes everything BUT bangali...he's got a big thing for blonds...
So that's Sam.  The Desi who hates all Desis....with the exception of Aryan.


So Sam suggests a place in the world where he thinks the hottest babes are found.

Oh how many times do you have to be told Aryan! 


Aryan:  huh?


oh Aryan......
may God help you.

tbc....









03 October 2012

Stockholm Hospitals need to get it together - inside story of Sara

"I have so much pain that I faint from pain. Seven times on Friday, two on Saturday and four yesterday. I have also fallen out of the wheelchair once, out of bed three times, most recently this morning at six ... Had been in pain from hell, the one and a half hours ..."

Today I want to share the story of an unfortunate patient who is currently suffering day and night in the Huddinge Hospital of Stockholm.  As we sit here, with our sane minds, all healthy and normal, carrying out our every-day duties in life, Sara, a single mother of 3, is fighting for her life, and the medical staff is not trying hard enough to look back at her even twice.  

About a year ago, Sara had a failed gastric bypass surgery which resulted in massive internal bleeding, leading to excessive weight loss.  She lost about 80kg within  a year which puts her to barely 40kg now; a 38-year-old mother of 3.  

Furthermore, she suffers from constant cluster migraines.  For those who are not familiar with this, these are the worst types of headaches a human being can experience.  Imagine, it is said to be worse than getting burnt, having bones broken, or childbirth.  Just think of the pain.  And to add on to that, neurologists in Huddinge Hospital classified Sara's scenario as the worst case of cluster migraines in Swedish history.  

Her failed bypass surgery and cluster migraines resulted in major neurological damage which led to memory loss and also made her develop anorexia.  So now she can hardly eat or drink anything unless it's in very small amounts.

Sara has been in the Huddinge Hospital for several weeks now, and during the past weeks she hasn't been re-hydrated or fed properly.  Her body is undergoing severe dehydration and she will soon be skin and bones.  She needs a special mattress, which had been promised to her but never came, just to lie on because her vertebrae sticks out  and hits the base of the ordinary mattresses giving her stinging pain while laying down.  

The most unbearable of all, Sara has been put off of all pain relievers so she has no hope of having her pain reduced at all.  

Sara was initially on Morphine but she was cut off from that because the pain reliever actually triggers headaches, so she was prescribed a weaker painkiller by the drop.  When her attacks came, they gave her sleeping pills and little oxygen which does not seem to help at all.  Everything she takes in are through tubes.  Food, water, pain relievers.  One night she had a seizure and the tube went out, and the only entrance she had to take in the pain reliever got  infected causing the vessel to rupture.  

"There are no more vessels to put a needle in when I'm totally down stung on both arms and feet. Needing a PICC line, but no referral has been sent. Referral to a dietician should have gone away on Sunday, last week ... a week and a half ago...No one has emerged."

"The day before yesterday, I was asked if I wanted something to eat, at half past eight in the evening. It was the first time all day I was offered food ..."

"I have so much pain that I faint from pain. Seven times on Friday, two on Saturday and four yesterday. I have also fallen out of the wheelchair once, out of bed three times, most recently this morning at six ... Had been in pain from hell, the one and a half hours ..."

Medical staffs all over Sweden need to start prioritizing.  This is not the first time we are hearing about making chronic patients wait for nothing. (http://www.dn.se/nyheter/sverige/vantetiderna-skiljer-stort-for-cancervard

This is a call for help!

For those of you who live in Sweden, I kindly request you to participate in the petition for giving Huddinge Sjukhus a wake-up call by taking care of a patient and prioritizing before it is too late.  Simply go to this website, http://namninsamling.se/index.php#.UGwnzE3MhoE, scroll down to the red dotted box and put your name and city you reside in. THAT IS ALL.  

For the rest of you who are reading this, please keep Sara in your prayers.  Thank God for everything we are blessed with and pray for Sara.  That is the least we can do.  

Thank you.

13 September 2012

Pär Norling wants to ban Islam in Sweden


Who is Pär Norling?

He is the group leader of the Swedish Democratic party in Bollnäs. 

Why does he want to ban Islam?

Let’s look at this from his point of view shall we?

Comparing modern-day Sweden with the 1970s Sweden, violence has been gradually increasing.  Sweden was once a place where almost no violence existed.  Like you can literally count (1,2 ,3 wise) how many crimes occurred in a year I guess.  There weren’t so many people living here either. Now, however, we are exposed to a totally different scenario. 

Let’s say you live in this country and you are heading out to work in the morning.  Once you’re in the station you grab a copy of the Metro or let’s say “Dagens Nyheter” before getting on the train and the bold title displayed on the cover page captures your attention so you start reading about a young innocent girl who got raped, or an attempted bank-robbery that never really became successful.   In most cases, the victim is a Swede and the criminal/rapist is a “jävla invandrare” (immigrant). 

Norling entirely blames Muslims for the crimes. He even went so far to saying that even citizens who practice Islam should be deported from this country.  He thinks that Islam is ruining the Swedish society. Well Norling you overlooked the thousands of Muslims who are mastering the Swedish language, trying to fit into the Swedish culture (struggling) and becoming successful professionals trying to IMPROVE the society.  How about the hard-working Muslims that do most of the dirty work in Sweden?    

By the way, Sweden’s economy is not so great! No jobs anywhere! You expect crimes to decrease?

Supposedly “Muslims” (hypocrites) who are ruining Islamic image.

Honestly, I think Swedes here are very respectful towards women.

I’ve experienced creepy stalkers within the past years in Stockholm, and look, what a coincident, they happened to be Arabs.  One of them I knew was Muslim, apparently.  Now I think to myself, damn Arab?  Some Arabs I encounter in Stockholm are either rude, aggressive, or uncivilized pervs!  With the exception of my husband’s friends, who are ALSO arabs.  With the exception of the Arabs I met during my sfi and komvux classes.  With the exception of the MAJORITY of Arabs I met in the Masjid during Friday prayers or Eid Prayers.  They are also Arabs living in Sweden. So sincere and with good character. In fact, they are more faithful than those perverts I had encountered. 

The Real Muslim

True faithful Muslims will never commit crimes and be so heartless.  Yet Norling and many others around the world blame Islam for the violence?   A few seconds ago I was blaming Arabs for just a few bad ones?

 Arabs, Somalians, Bangladeshis, Bosnians, Pakistanis, Indians, Americans, Swedes, and so many more races…races of every kind practice Islam.  MashAllah! They don’t practice terrorism, violence, rape, domestic violence, and war.  Jihad has a completely different meaning. I’ll tell you what they DO.  They (the true believers) follow the 5 pillars of Islam:  Having faith, Praying, giving alms/supporting the needy around the world, fasting during the Holy month of Ramadan, and performing the pilgrimage to Mecca.  They Read the Quran and practice Islam not by FORCE (forcing is not permitted in Islam) but by free will.  They must repect woman! Be forgiving and humble. They must have good behavior and conduct because on the day of judgement, the first thing that will be judged is how they acted with other people in this world (muslim or not).   They believe that there is one God and he created everything. Laaa ilaha illalah. They love and respect every single one of their prophets and they always say after saying ANY prophets name “May peace and the blessings of God be upon them”. 
That’s called being a true Muslim.  Do not mix personal flaws, tradition and culture, violence,race with Islam. Islam is not a race but it is a religion of Peace.  My Islam.  That’s what the word Islam means, to surrender/submit.   

May God have mercy on us and guide us to the straight path, Ameen.

12 August 2012

Step-by-step in Sweden : Checklist

It has been about one and a half months since I wrote my little to-do list and I continuously tried to remind myself that I will be able to achieve all these things through that magic word - patience.

I'm happy to share to you guys that I am finally having some progress in this country.  After 2 and a half years, that is.

Let me go through my little list that I made on my previous post:

1. I need a job. (in progress)

Any job, really.  Part-time, full-time, temporary.  I don't care! I just need one.

I lost count on how many I applied for! Frustrating. I finally got one last week! Thanks to the help of my wonderful husband.  So hopefully  I will start working as a marketing assistant for this MVNO, full-time.  I'll tell you all the good and bad things about it once I start. After all, it's going to be my first job in Sweden.

2. Need to get educated in SWEDISH. (in progress)

I see available well-paid jobs within healthcare.  Since I studied biology in the US, I'm really interested in getting into Sweden's 3-year nursing program.  I want to start that in the beginning of next year, which leaves me four months of waiting.  What do I do in the meantime?  Work my butt off.

Once I start my new job, which is within the field of administration, reception, and costumer service, I need to still keep looking for similar jobs.  First, because (as much as I want to stay committed in one job) I have no guarantee if I will be a permanent employee, and second, If by any chance this job is an extremely big pain, It wouldn't hurt to send a resume to another company.  Let's hope it's not that bad.

I couldn't apply for nursing this year because my Swedish language grades came a couple of days after the registration deadline, bummer, which is why I have to wait till next spring.  Talk about patience! I did, however, register for a 20-week receptionist program which will start in october. It's a full-time distance-learning program which will give me a certificate in the field of administration, something I will already be working on, but hopefully with this recognition, I might either get a better paying job or a promotion.  Options sound pretty good.

So that's what I do while I hopefully study sjuksköterska utbildning for 3 whole years.

3.  I still need a svenskt körkort.  (no action taken).

Yea. I really need to get that.

4.  I need a permanent residence permit. (CHECK)

And its a huge relief!  I got my permanent residency card from the Migrationsverket last month.  Now i regret making a stupid ID-card for 400sek.  But I am sure Swedes still prefer the typical ID over an alien residency card.
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So that's what's going on!

We are still in the month of Ramadan, where all Muslims fast from dawn  till sunset, and doing that in Sweden at this time of the year is a major test! 20 hours!

I would sit in front of the table filled with delicious food, fresh fruits and refreshments right before sunset and sometimes it seems that the minutes will never move.  I think of how hard it is to be patient and wonder how everything in life is like this.  There is never an easy way out.  If you want something great, you can't just grab it and digest it.  We earn through hardship, and only then do we fully appreciate the value of something so special.  So when the sun suddenly sets, I appreciate that table full of food that some people don't even get a piece of in a day.  All that patience and hardship pays off when Sweden's cool refreshing water goes down my throat. I love Sweden's water!

So that's how I think of it.  Life here is progressing for me.  Working hard will get me to the place I want to be.  


28 June 2012

Step-by-step in Sweden



I’m finally done with the basics.  That is to say, I have finally completed the Swedish language.  All those SFI courses, grund courses, and Svenska B lectures are over with.  May those days never come back again, Amen!  I honestly think Svenska B was a waste of time, but hey, it’s required for most qualificaitons.  

The next step is educating myself through Swedish.  I still need all the patience in the world.  I always thought of myself as the patient type.  Whatever happened to that Tani?   I think I had left it in America.  No worries.  My husband and I had recently taken a nice month-long vacation back home in the warm peach state.  I got the chance to find that hidden sack of patience in my old room in Atlanta and took it with me to Sweden.  So what’s my purpose of being so patient?
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  1.  I need a job.
  2.  I need a degree that is appropriate for this country.  In other words, I need to get educated in SWEDISH.  Make my karriär you know?  Not career, silly.   
  3. I still need a svenskt körkort.  An American driver’s license stays only in America, whether I like it or not.
  4.   I need a permanent residence permit.  Because as of now, I am NOT getting any kind of financial aid.


My dad tells me knowledge is power, and that is so true.  He also says to “always follow your dreams” and I am lucky to have parents who would say that.  But if I really want to follow these sayings, there is one thing I need to start doing, despite all the pressure.  And that’s being patient.  

Just wait and watch world! 

01 June 2012

Art of the Day: His Ghost

I missed drawing on paper so much that I just took a long break from the ipad. I guess digital art isn't my thing.  I love sketching... I scribble on and on and never erase.

Isn't it scary to even think about it? How we're all going to lose our loved ones.  It's the harsh reality.
The worst feeling ever.  Losing the one you love.  They went through hard times and joy together.  There was a time when they would playfully ask each other "What would I have done without you?" They had 4 beautiful kids, raised them, got to see their weddings.  Some had kids, some just married. Their house became empty once again.  They moved into that house when they were in their mid-20s.  So young and energetic.  So many memories embedded in every single part of their home.  Now they were weak and aging.  All they needed was each other.  They mystically ask each other sometimes, "What am I going to do without you?"  One day it hit the woman.  She realized she was the only one asking herself that.  It stung her inside badly.  All she heard was her echo in that empty house.  "God knows how much I miss you...."

30 May 2012

Rant rant rant

I miss thunderstorms.  I miss that feeling of rush going through the body right before a huge storm hits the area.  Haven't seen one in more than 2 years, because Sweden is a place where no such thing exists.  There are no big waves or lightning.  They have no bagels or real nestles chocolate chips.  I still haven't gotten used to the 3 extra letters on the keyboard that mess the entire board up.  I have to start looking at the keyboard while typing nowadays.  I am still not used to putting spaces between the correct amount of numbers in a swedish phone number.  It's hard for me to understand how the lamest slowest least helpful people have the same jobs year after year (like that stupid girl who works at Gallerix) while hardworking well-educated immigrants sit and wait in the employment office to get their names called for nothing.  Like my in-laws say, "nowadays they want you to have a damn degree in CLEANING to be a janitor."

I'm a bit tired of seeing nothing but Volvos on the roads.  Oh, let's not even start with the drivers here.  The only reason there are less accidents here is because more than half the people take other sources of transportation, leaving an almost empty freeway.  It's funny how this country gets on your ass about being a qualified Swedish driver  yet you still see crazy drivers (unseen by cops).   So pointless to spend thousands on traffic schools, courses, and tests when you will get failed for it anyway.  It's less about learning defensive driving and more of getting used to the game.  Or sucking up.  Like, money comes out of our ass or something.

Swedish sometimes becomes irritating because everybody sounds the same.  Same expression, same tone.  It is hard to be unique.  You have to use more adverbs instead of adjectives for something good, because "bra" (good) is an overly used word.

Ok? I'm complaining.  It's my day to rant about this country's dryness in ...well..everything.   DRY DRY land.  Not much touches me because it's so damn dry!  

But hey, no country is perfect.  It's made out of people.  You have flaws..yeah, I know, I do too.  So no point in complaining about how the world treats us.  It's what we make of it.

Yup, I have no idea why I wrote all this....

I feel light-headed though!

29 February 2012

Art of the Day - Is There Hope?


We often tend to let our weakness get to us which slowly degrades our happiness piece by piece.  To make it worse, we pity ourselves with that annoying question "why me?" You think your stuck so deep that there's no way out. 
The ugly truth is you're no angel.  Nobody is.  And it's not just you.  We all go through tough times.  Grieving never gets you anywhere in life.  Instead, always look for the light.